#430
oh my sky I feel like going to swim the weather is so hot.
woke up as usual around 7am (okay maybe not usual)... gosh the CNY holidays made me so lazy I think even though they're so far away already. being able to wake up at 8am on weekends is a luxury D: PFFT.
So, my last SLI is gone!
okay it's not like I have any emotions WHACKING me in the stomach or something, but goodness me, last SLI. Hmm idk if it's just me, but I think the feeling of being sec4 has finally kicked in. well maybe it's no longer only because the sec4s'09 aren't here anymore, maybe it's the feeling of having many more worries and many more instances of being upset and really just in despair. I just it's just another stage in life perhaps.
we had a rgco dialogue yesterday! thanks nanny and mich for that dialogue, it was... I guess.. rather useful in the sense that people got to speak up and say what they had to say about rgco for now, and i think it was really good "let-out-all-that-angst" time. I wanted to request for everybody to start shooting daggers at the SLs but in the end I decided against it because... well maybe we SLs wouldn't be able to take it hmm idk, but all it takes is ______ and i cannot tahan anymore. So i guess.. wise decision heh.
but i really want feedback ):
but rgco dialogue... okay nevermind I won't say anything else here.
we had huibao too! people whom I really wanted to have huibao didn't turn up for very amazing reasons, actually probably invalid reasons/ reasons they didn't bother to tell me at all until I ASKED, and i think you get the general idea that i'm pissed. YES I AM, so if you guys read this (which I don't think you will) please do reflect. A section is not made up of just you, you cannot be absent and be present as and when you please. Thanks.
huibao was okay i guess, in the sense that I got a clearer picture of where the section is now. It's not like we're extremely bad, because people who underperformed were very obviously shaking away (oops haha) and I actually heard some of them before. And people who didn't play mangchun kuaiban as fast as you normally do, BANG BANG BANG. you were supposed to xD BANG AGAIN.
ahwell back to rgco dialogue i guess. I realised how much some of my dear friends were suffering and all, and i guess i know more problems they face now. But it's just this general sense of helplessness because I know i can never be enough to help them, and at the moment it seems as though nothing i think of is good enough. And furthermore, i have my own load too, and thinking about 3 (?) persons' loads is just killing me.
but i want to help.
SO BADLY.