the heart-- a hollow, pumplike organ of blood circulation, composed mainly of rhythmically
contractile smooth muscle, located in the chest between the lungs and slightly to
the left and consisting of four chambers. the center of emotion.
i must be having heartache, (who cares literally or figuratively anyway) cos the left side of me is hurting. not that kind of hurting in which you know your heart's gonna jump out any moment and you're gonna die, but that kind when you feel dejected, rejected, or you're in absolute despair.
sometimes i feel i was right to lead you on, bring you back, other times i see clearly the condition im in and i suddenly have this urge to say: i brought it all upon myself. but without you around with me, things would very well be really different. but will my heart be feeling the same?
well i very much dont know, cos everything has been going on, and im long past the time where we just started-- at the beginning. but im still really really grateful for you, no matter how much my heart aches now, and i hope i dont regret what i did for you. on a happier note, your progress makes my day (:
but i can sense that gap, a trench im sure wasnt there before. but its okay, its not your fault. and im not blaming you either;
till i see the light-